So this is just for me. Some place for me to vent my thoughts with no other motive behind it nor theme to follow. So here is the deal. I have to first examine my own life to figure out who I am. I am 27 now, and eep down I still don't know who I am. I am a huge Sci-Fi fan, but at the same time I am also a jock. I guess one can tell why I can hate and love myself at the same time. I have struggled to figure out which parts of me are better than the others. Society makes me think that the jocks side of me should be the side I embrace, but other parts of me believe that the geek side of me is what I should embrace. I think that I will never be completely happy with who I am and have the confidence that I know is inside me until I solve this conundrum.
From the moment I first saw them I have have loved Star Trek, Star Wars, Back to the Future and James Bond. I guess that is part of my inner geek. But also I play sports and dress stylish. I have tried to reconcile this into one total personality and I thought that I had at one time but that back fired. I had all the confidence in the world but now that has left me. I feel like I only have confidence when i am being the best that I know I can be. However, it is really hard to be the best that I can be when I am lacking that confidence. I am planning on writing this blog to rediscover who I am. Well. I will try to keep this blog going as long as I think about it actively, which is hard when I have such an awesome wife. But I hope that this will be a good place to put my thoughts down on paper.
I would like to say that I had a job interview today. I think that it went well though I was nervous through out the interview. I would love to gt this job, it is the exact job that I want. It is in a corporate environment and seems to have a lot of opportunity for growth which is what I need at the moment. I commit to things for the long haul when I commit which I could definitively do at this job. I am looking forward to hearing more about this position and hoping I get a second interview. If I don't I will be deeply disappointed, but at the same time I will have to accept that I did not and move on. I know that there was some apprehension about me going back to litigation, but to be honest I think that I have gotten all the litigation out of my system. I am ready to settle down in a corporate job where I can help people and corporate entities grow through insuring good title to their lands.
